Today was better. A little more energy and feeling a little better. Actually, I was quite frustrated at work and nearly yelled at a client. He asked me why I was so upset. I won't get into that here, but let's just say that my leaving for a conference tomorrow for 2 days probably has something to do with my mood and energy. I just need a break from clients and politics at work.
I was hungry today. Of course. I was also so busy that I hardly had time to eat. Even on my lunch, I rushed to Whole Foods to grocery shop because I had no other time today to squeeze that in. I am sufficiently sore today from yesterday's workout, particularly my quads and calves. I am still able to walk, however.
Tomorrow is an off day from training, which is a good thing because I will be waking up around 430 tomorrow to drive for 3 hours to this conference. Fortunately, the hotel I am staying in has a full gym, at least that is what the website says. Sometimes hotels advertise that only to find that there is decades old cardio equipment and a few mismatched dumbbells.
I won't have internet access tomorrow or Friday unless the hotel has computers available for use, so I won't be able to blog. I could conceivably blog on Friday when I get back around 8 PM, but I have a feeling that after 3 hours of driving home and fighting traffic, all I will really want to do is lay in bed and not wake up until mid-morning Saturday.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Survived the First Day!
I survived the 1st day of my new training plan and diet. I have to continuously remind myself that this no starches nonsense will only last one week!! That's it! Tell that to my rumbling stomach! Of course, that's what happens, too, when you are used to eating basically everything you want when you want. Your stomach expands, which leaves only more room to fill! I did enjoy my post-workout gummy bears, though! I savored each one.
The workouts for the first couple weeks are set up as push/pull. Today was push. And boy, did I push! I've lost a lot of strength over the last year. I used to be able to squat my own weight. Not anymore. I didn't even bother trying to rack on all that weight because I already knew it wasn't going to happen. I also have to remind myself that it took me a year of slacking to get me to where I am today, so I can't expect miracles. At least not right away. My legs are already feeling shaky. We'll see if I can walk tomorrow.
Energy and mood were about the same today. No miracles, at least not today.
The workouts for the first couple weeks are set up as push/pull. Today was push. And boy, did I push! I've lost a lot of strength over the last year. I used to be able to squat my own weight. Not anymore. I didn't even bother trying to rack on all that weight because I already knew it wasn't going to happen. I also have to remind myself that it took me a year of slacking to get me to where I am today, so I can't expect miracles. At least not right away. My legs are already feeling shaky. We'll see if I can walk tomorrow.
Energy and mood were about the same today. No miracles, at least not today.
Monday, March 29, 2010
I'm baaack!
I've been gone for a very, very long time. I doubt that anyone even reads this anymore, but in case there are a few readers, I'll fill you in.
Oklahoma has not grown on me. My job has grown on me some, but not enough. I've made only one friend here. But at least I can say she is truly a friend, someone I can count on and someone who I can talk to about anything. I hate living in a small town. I hate living in the Bible belt. I hate commuting 2 hours/day. I hate the weight that I've gained thanks in much part to my commuting lifestyle. I hate that I allow myself to feel depressed and often defeated by this lifestyle. I'm tired. I'm unmotivated. I'm a little depressed, which I suffer from anyway, but I've noticed it more over the last few months.
I really do try to keep a positive outlook. I've made some changes. I listen to books on CD while I commute, so all that driving doesn't feel like such a waste of time. And I love the books. I drive more slowly now and often cannot wait for my commute. I go out to lunch with my friend at least once per week.
So, here I am, less than 2 months from my wedding and feeling very unfit. Unhappy, too. But, more importantly than anything I've just spoken about is that I'm tired of how I'm feeling. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of having no motivation. I'm tired of carrying around an extra 10 lbs.
I signed up for fitnesspoynters.com, the "psychotic fat destruction program." Yes, that's really what it's called. The number of days training varies every 2 weeks, but will basically be anywhere from 4-6 days lifting and 5 days of cardio. The diet is very strict. No starches at all in my first week with the exception of my post-workout nutrition (that includes gummy bears!). :-) You can imagine my delight! I LOVE soft sugary snacks!
This time I am setting up a system of rewards. My aim is not to lose a certain amount of weight, because in some ways that is out of my control. Instead, my goal is to follow the diet as much as possible. There will be days when I go out to lunch or treat myself to sushi, but I'll be more mindful of what I'm eating. My goal is also to complete all the workouts, even the cardio. I might modify the cardio some. I want to run a sub 20-minute 5K this year, after all. And I also want to blog everyday about this journey. I am sure there will be days when I write very little, but there may be days where I write more. And if I follow this plan for two weeks, then I can reward myself. My first 2 week reward will be a pair of shoes. Nothing too pricey, about $50 or less. I rarely buy things for myself other than books, and I have been wanting to really clean up my wardrobe to look more professional at work. And if I follow this for 1 month, then I can buy a necklace that I've had my eye on for some time. This is a bit more expensive, about $100.
And that's it. Follow the diet with a few indulgences once per week, follow the plan, and write! I start tomorrow, since I've just received my training and diet plan today.
Oklahoma has not grown on me. My job has grown on me some, but not enough. I've made only one friend here. But at least I can say she is truly a friend, someone I can count on and someone who I can talk to about anything. I hate living in a small town. I hate living in the Bible belt. I hate commuting 2 hours/day. I hate the weight that I've gained thanks in much part to my commuting lifestyle. I hate that I allow myself to feel depressed and often defeated by this lifestyle. I'm tired. I'm unmotivated. I'm a little depressed, which I suffer from anyway, but I've noticed it more over the last few months.
I really do try to keep a positive outlook. I've made some changes. I listen to books on CD while I commute, so all that driving doesn't feel like such a waste of time. And I love the books. I drive more slowly now and often cannot wait for my commute. I go out to lunch with my friend at least once per week.
So, here I am, less than 2 months from my wedding and feeling very unfit. Unhappy, too. But, more importantly than anything I've just spoken about is that I'm tired of how I'm feeling. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of having no motivation. I'm tired of carrying around an extra 10 lbs.
I signed up for fitnesspoynters.com, the "psychotic fat destruction program." Yes, that's really what it's called. The number of days training varies every 2 weeks, but will basically be anywhere from 4-6 days lifting and 5 days of cardio. The diet is very strict. No starches at all in my first week with the exception of my post-workout nutrition (that includes gummy bears!). :-) You can imagine my delight! I LOVE soft sugary snacks!
This time I am setting up a system of rewards. My aim is not to lose a certain amount of weight, because in some ways that is out of my control. Instead, my goal is to follow the diet as much as possible. There will be days when I go out to lunch or treat myself to sushi, but I'll be more mindful of what I'm eating. My goal is also to complete all the workouts, even the cardio. I might modify the cardio some. I want to run a sub 20-minute 5K this year, after all. And I also want to blog everyday about this journey. I am sure there will be days when I write very little, but there may be days where I write more. And if I follow this plan for two weeks, then I can reward myself. My first 2 week reward will be a pair of shoes. Nothing too pricey, about $50 or less. I rarely buy things for myself other than books, and I have been wanting to really clean up my wardrobe to look more professional at work. And if I follow this for 1 month, then I can buy a necklace that I've had my eye on for some time. This is a bit more expensive, about $100.
And that's it. Follow the diet with a few indulgences once per week, follow the plan, and write! I start tomorrow, since I've just received my training and diet plan today.
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